my advice: ( most people dont like it anyway cause its to blunt and to the point and somewhat "Harsh"Go for it, kill ur self, what do u have to lose, if nothing, then u shouldn't be alive,if ur afraid to u have something to lose. First of all existence on earth, a live that many people in the grave would like. Even if life is crappy, surviving it in is better than having none. I feel ur pain somewhat, really, i have thought about it because my dad used to drink, alot, and neglect me, at that time he loved wrestling so... he would try those moves on tv on me, and god damn, did it ever hurt, but what was i to do. I was spanked,lots, not allowed to do anything but work, and if i didnt i was beaten.
Well, i held out even through that, i waited for the day from him to stop. Well four years ago, my dreams were reached. Now me and my dad go fishing, camping, play pc games the how works. We still have our difference but, thats just life.
My other advice is see a shrink, or us to talk to. I hate to get religious but god has his plans for all of us, what ur thinking of doing, is not his,( and if ur catholic ur damned to hell if u do) u might not see it, but ur hear for a purpose, if not u wouldn't be alive!?
Something to think about.
By the way this isn't a help center or a hotline type, for others reading this. Lets cheat, not talk about death, it comes soon enough as is!